Don’t Panic, It’s Organic

February 28, 2010

Hello World.

Sorry for not updating… these past couple of weeks have been a blur of mixed emotions.

But today, I need some reassurance. I keep thinking about Eugene vs. Seattle. Eugene vs. Seattle. Seattle vs. Eugene.

I’ve been here at the University of Oregon for two terms now… and I just found out that a friend of mine is thinking about transferring to one of the two Washington schools.

Am I happy here? I mean, I love my friends. I love my dorms. But, when it comes to living here, I feel like I can’t expand. I miss my mom. I miss my town. I miss the University District. I miss the Seattle Weekly and the Stranger. I miss my life before college (not the high school part but the seattle/family/friends part).

I’m not sure whether I’m trying to live in the past, or if I’m trying to get everyone together again or if I’m really unhappy right now but not later. I dunno.

Someone reassure me. Please.


The Electric Love Letter

February 15, 2010

Hello World!

So today is a good day. The sun is shining outside, and everyone is roaming around trying to get a waft of those sweet rays. Today is the day for sweet music, no sweatshirts, having lunch with friends outside, and (most importantly) forgetting about V-Day.

Check, check, check, and definitely check!

Don’t get me wrong, V-day isn’t as bad as everyone makes it out to be. Afterall, I never really celebrate it with a lot of style and fashion… in fact, I never have a need to celebrate it…. not saying that I’m alone.

But, for those of us who are unfortunate enough to resent V-day, we can all feel the sweet sunshine on our sweet faces today.

Anyways, life is good. Yes, it is presidents day. Yes, we still have class (and as of right now, I’m sitting in my chinese pop culture class). But, it is nothing to cry about. After all, we should all embrace the sunshine… I mean, afterall it seems like it never comes around for long.

So today, I challenge you to listen to a good song, breath in a deep breath in the sunshine, smile at random strangers, and have a bounce in your step today. it’ll help you out a lot!

(sorry for the live… couldn’t find a normal version)

What Would Jesus NOT Do?

February 11, 2010

Hello world!

Well, my attempts to go to bed early have failed once more, for it is 1am, and I am still awake. But, alas, I figured I would update you before I hit the hay.

I just got finished watching one of my favorite movies (Choke (2009)) with my next door neighbor and her boyfriend…. and I can’t help but feel a little messed up after watching it with them.

You see, I’m a huge fan of Chuck Palahniuk’s work, Fight Club, Invisible Monsters, Survivor (which is quite possibly my favorite of all his novels), and of course Choke. And keeping with his average style, Choke is a story about a messed-up guy who finds himself within a very messed up world.

So, the main gist of the movie/book is this: Victor (played by the dashing Sam Rockwell) is a sex addict who works as “the backbone of colonial America” (aka he’s one of those people who reenact life back in the 1600s). At the same time, he is trying to support his mother, who is living in a mental institute for demensia. He struggles with his addiction, his mother, the hot new doctor at the institute, all while choking on food at restaurants to get money. But when he finds out that he is the half-clone of Jesus Christ, he now reassesses his whole existence.

Now, honestly, the talk in this movie is profound. Victor provides a lot of insight into his world (as he is also the narrator of some scenes). As the audience watches, we realize the trouble he is going through and seeing his issues and ideas along with him.

The main drawback of this movie is that it is riddled with graphic sex scenes.

So, as we watched the movie in our shanty basement, my neighbors tended to look at it as a nearly-pornographic sex-drive movie… they made comments and, I presume, were disturbed by his sexual tendencies. But as for me, well, I’ve seen this movie too many times to count.

Is it creepy that I enjoy this movie so much? Don’t get me wrong, the first time I saw this movie I nearly spat out my giant cup of water at the teevee screen because of its graphic nudity… but it wasn’t unexpected. I mean, the red-band preview even showed one of the violent sex scenes, so I knew what was about to unfold.

Still, though, I see this movie not as a pornographic sex-drive film, nor do I see it as some cheap comedy. I think it contains insight and beautifully crafted character development that most movies lack these days. Honestly, it is a very interesting movie.

I wonder if I’m a creeper if I watch this movie so much though. I mean, this was the second time in a week I’ve watched the whole movie, and the third time I’ve watched the last five minutes (I won’t tell you the ending, but I will say, it is probably one of the best endings to a movie I have ever seen. Thank you for using Radiohead’s “Reckoner!”)

Whatever the case may be, Choke remains one of my favorite movies, regardless of the sex and naked bodies.

by the way, I’ve come to the realization that this song may be my favorite song ever written. Thank you Radiohead for such a masterpiece.


February 8, 2010

Hello world!

Well, I’m back in Eugene, and although I’m happy to be back, I am still sad that I’m not back in Seattle for longer.

This weekend really helped me de-stress after the events of the following week. Mostly it consisted of my mom and I hangin’ out in Seattle and the cities around us.

Going to Archie Mcphees, old navy, and assorted shops in downtown Seattle (which was EXACTLY what I wanted to do), and then walking around the Southcenter mall… all was so well.

When we weren’t out shopping, we were watching movies like “The Truth About Cats And Dogs” and “The 40-Year Old Virgin”… it was a fantastic weekend.

I was sad to come home, but now I’m here.

The sun is shining outside, and everyone is in such a good mood! It’s just a great day to be outside.

As I’m typing this, our teacher is showing us the opening to “Once Upon A Time In China,” and she’s trying to wrap up class so we can enjoy the sun today. I’m pretty excited.

Time to listen to some great music and enjoy that sun!

The Foot

February 4, 2010

Hello world!

Well, this week has finally come to an end (THANK GOODNESS!) and I’ve finally done good things!

Today has been pretty awesome:

+ Watching “Six Feet Under” right now, and it’s fantastic. Seriously. Fantastic. The show has mostly serious moments, but the humor is dark enough to be completely awesome!

+ I got an A on 2 of my midterms: Astronomy (which I already talked about) and Grammar (YES)

+ Studied hard for my other midterm that was today, and the questions weren’t really that hard


Sadly, for me no six feet under this weekend, but I will be watchin’ some movies on ze train 😀 hoorah!

BY THE WAY: how amazing is the opening sequence for this show:

So, blog, I will talk to you after this weekend, and recount what all happened 🙂

Have a great weekend all!

30 questions about LOST (warning, Spoilers)

February 2, 2010

Hello world!

So, after watching the season premier of LOST tonight, I have some questions:

1. What exactly IS anti-John Locke?

2. Richard Alpert: What the heck is his deal? In chains? Beautiful? What is it?!

3. What did Juliet mean when she said “it worked?”

4. Why didn’t they take Juliet to the Temple to heal her?

5. What happened to Desmond when he was on the plane?

6. Why is Bernard still alive?

7. Why was Jack bleeding when he sort of jolted awake?

8. If they are in a certain time period, what time is it?

9. How did Juliet survive such a fall?

10. Why did Kate end up in a tree?

11. Is Sayid really alive, or is he the reincarnation of Jacob?

12. Why WAS Jacob so calm when Ben killed him?

13. What is the importance of sun, lapidus, and such?

14. Following the logic that certain people did or did not die, what happened to Daniel Faraday, his mother, his father, and Charlotte?

15. Why was the island underwater?

16. Does LAX Jack remember anything that happened?

17. Why is there split endings going on?

18. What is the importance of Charlie and Claire?

19. Is Rose going to die of cancer?

20. Why did Jack say “Nothing’s irreversible?” Does that have another meaning?

21. Why couldn’t they hear when they woke up the second time?

22. What is the purpose of Sawyer, Jack, and Kate?

23. What happened to Walt and Michael?

24. Does any of Faraday’s work apply to anything?

25. What exactly is the monster?

26. Polar Bears?

27. Why are the others still dressed in garb?

28. Who is the asian man? And what is his importance?

29. Why can Miles and Hurly see ghosts, but not have the same effects?

and, most importantly:


Today may not KICK-ASS but I know what does!

February 2, 2010

Hello world!

I’d like to take this moment to recognize a few things:

– Radiohead’s “In Rainbows” album is the BEST rainy day album EVER.

– Coffee tastes SO MUCH BETTER when you are not happy

– The world is not a lie… Alexandre Desplat (who wrote the score for Fantastic Mr. Fox (2009)) was nominated for his original score. And Christoph Waltz (aka the Jew Hunter in Inglourious Basterds (2009)) was nominated for best supporting actor. FOREVER YES.

– The movie Kick-Ass is just taunting me. Damn you and your awesomeness!

What’s that? haven’t seen the preview? well, my good friend let me enlighten you:

Have a good day 🙂

Swedish 70s Ski Lodge

February 1, 2010

Hello again world.

Sorry for the frequent posts these past couple of days, but writing this blog has been a very good outlet for my emotions.

Anyways, as of right now, I’m feeling very discouraged about my work. The events that unfolded this weekend really threw me out of the loop… and ever since then, I’ve been distracted, weak, sad, and extremely stressed.

I feel bad moping around throughout the night, but I can’t help but feel these feelings. The problem with this whole situation is of course the news breaks right before midterm week. So, in addition to studying for two midterms, writing a paper on Chinese Pop Culture, and in the middle writing articles and such I have to worry about family problems.

Needless to say, I am a wreck. Well, more like a trainwreck.

As I sit here, listening to things like “Open Sea Theme” (which sounds like I’m hanging out with a bearded man in a Swedish 70s Ski Lodge), trying not to think about things, I feel like a failure. My homework persists to either be low quality or just sitting on the shelf, awaiting its turn.

I’m overwhelmed. When will this week be over? Ready go.

Again & Again

February 1, 2010

Hello world!

I am happy to say that today has already proven to be better than yesterday. and the day before. I mean, sure, I’m stressed and tired and even more stressed, but I’m happy.

So, I’m trying to figure out why…

– I changed my ringtone to The Bird And The Bee’s “Again & Again”. Just makes me smile

I know he's nerdy, but Jesse Eiseberg... there's something about him...

– I found a strange new love for the actor Jesse Eisenberg. I’m writing a really sweet little story right now that I think he’d be perfect for.

– Astronomy curve has given me a very real A+ on the midterm (forever yes)

– the 5 minute dance party in the lounge at 1:00am last night helped me not fall asleep… but it was still awesome.

– I’m coming back home this weekend. Oh my lurvely Seattle.

– mmmm. coffee…

– sleeping in always makes me feel good in the morning



– FLOYD. ❤

Well, I guess my life is just going with the curve today. Although I wish I could just fall right back asleep… too much tired.

But anyways, life is good. I’m excited to get my tests and essays done, but once they are… getting on a bus and taking a train back home.

I need this. thank goodness for fast travel!

mmm. Coffee. Floyd. Sleep. And finishing essays. tonight’s gonna be good.

City Lights

January 31, 2010

Hello World!

Goodness Gracious, has this weekend been messy! I’m fairly certain this is one of those days where I can actually admit that I’m excited that the weekend is almost over.

One good note:

Cage the Elephant’s CD is really good. Like really, really good. AND, this is my favorite part, I have discovered a part of me that is totally into Tom Waits. Forever Yes.

But anyways. Yeah, this weekend has quickly plummeted with only a few words.

I guess the best way to put this is that my family is beginning to sort of fall apart. Hanging out with my dad proved to be a little more difficult this weekend then it normally should be. I mean, of course there were good parts, but the major bad part really ruined me this weekend.

After many tears, I am safe to say that I will spend next week back in the greater Seattle area with my mom, who is going through a lot the past couple of days.

But this blog post is dedicated to my wonderful friends who listened to me while I hysterically recounted what happened that day. Without them, I would not be okay… But thankfully, they were there for me. Never enough thanks for you guys ❤

anyways. That’s over now. I’m supposed to be studying, but I am very distracted with typing this. Oh well.

After the craziness called love… well, more like crying and putting up a fuss, I proceeded to do the majority of a puzzle called “City Lights,” which is a bunch of penguins in a weird alternate reality Hollywood. Scary. But not really. Sadly, I had to destroy it today to allow more table room for others.

anyways. I leave you with some white stripes. I mean, what’s better than the White Stripes?